Christmas Eve Thoughts

conversation with the seller:

-Are you Russian?- the seller

-Yes, – I

-I have a Russian sister-in-law. She has the same accent. I don’t understand her sometimes. But her English is pretty good and so is yours.

-Thank you. Tell her … – I tried to tell something nice

-She has a happy life with my brother in Сalifornia…near the ocean..- she couldn’t stop talking

-Tell her…Merry Christmas, – I tried again

-And she had nothing

-Tomorrow is a Russian Christmas

-Oh, I didn’t know that. Thank you, I will wish her a Merry Christmas, – eventually she heard me

 I almost ran away from this woman and the conversation.

I  know my accent is my problem. I need to work on it more  efficiently, and I don’t. 

Unlike some immigrants, I don’t live in a community where people speak my native language.

Therefore, I had to learn English to be able to work and go around without a translator. I’ve reached some level, but now I’ve somehow slowed down on improving it. My bad. 

But, regardless, America is a country of immigrants, isn’t it?

They came here in pursuit of happiness. 

Is it so bad that a woman who had nothing is now having a good life? 

Maybe she deserves a better life, maybe she appreciates it.

I do appreciate it. 

My Instagram friend recently wrote (about herself): “When I am overwhelmed with gratitude, I remind myself of one beautiful phrase: I believe – my family and I paid enough for me to feel it right now”.

The right phrase at the right time.

I do appreciate my life here and …I deserve it. 

P. S. sorry for the bravado. And Merry Orthodox Christmas!